my l0ve f0r y0u*

Friday, June 16, 2006

Girl you know i miss you so
I didn't know you had to go
You've had enough of our distance baby
Before I had the chance to say
I'm staying with you
For the rest of my life
Don't keep telling me these words
You don't know how much it hurts
And I'll promise you eternity if you promise me your stay
But now it's too late
I'm no longer the man that I was
I will go on without her
Like a fool who's too sure
I'm like a brid who's lost her wing
A fire without its flame
I don't know how to be strong
When my love has to move on
I am a song without a soul
Now that she's gone
What's left of us is this song

I can't believe it
Tell me I'm dreaming
That we are still we
It was amazing
Said you were lucky
That you found me
It was on a rainy day that we met
You didn't have a place to go
I said we just met so lets go slow but no
You just tell me to keep you from the cold
Sorry I can't take it
Why did u fake it
Why did we kiss
And I'm just down
You left me with a note without a sound
I figured I must have been such a child
You'll never know how much I've been around
How my heart just frowns If you're down
I'll be your teddy bear I'll be your clown
I'll take you round and round and
If you don't mind I cound be your standing ground
Even if that means I'd drown
I said we just met so lets go slow but no
You just tell me to keep you from the cold
Sorry I can't take it
Why did u fake it Why did we kiss
And I'm just down
You left me with a note without a sound
I figured I must have been such a child
You'll never know how much I've been around
How my heart just frowns If you're down
I'll be your teddy bear I'll be your clown
I'll take you round and round and
If you don't mind I cound be your standing ground
Even if that means I'd drown
And baby that'll be my one last vow

# my love for you*
|10:44 AM|

Friday, June 02, 2006

29 may:
chinese O-level paper
my dictionary was confiscated..
cuz there are words inside.
haiz..
why m i so unlucky this yr..
i'm so innocent la..
goodness..

wasn't in good mood..
don't intend to tell my family..
cuz i'm scare..
there are alr not happy with my results..
& the way i spend money..
cuz i'm always sick & my phone etc.
i'm always the one in my family doing or making troubles.
they don understand mi at all..
that's what i feel.

i don know what to say about it..
seriously i don wish to talk about it actually..
cuz it realy upset me..

but becuz Ms lim called mi just now.
she told mi:
8 june, 3pm.
i have to go to the singapore examination & assessment board
for the interview about my dictionary case.
i very scare dat i won't be able to do my other O-level papers.
but i really didn't have the intention to cheat.
i didn't even know dat there is words inside.

hope dat someone will company mi go there..
cuz i'm really scare.
pray hard that everything will be fine.
pray hard dat i'm still able to do all my papers.
pray hard dat i'll be fine.

# my love for you*
|4:04 PM|

Saturday, May 27, 2006

i was feeling down this feel days..
wasn't myself oso..
wasn't in clear mind oso.
have being think thru alot.
i realise that i'm person that everyone hated..
even my family.
that feeling come back again.
feel like ending here..
i don have the energy to carried on anymore.

my relationship with my parent was terribly bad this few days.
cuz of my result.
i onli PASSED 2 SUBJECT.
i really envy my friends who have a nice parent who really care & understand them.
who will not stress them..

i still rmb lasted year.
i quarrel with my mother.
she said she just wan mi to pass my exam can alr.
don nid to do so well like all A1.
but now i feel that dat's wat she say.
but not wat she think & feel in her heart.
my parent have being giving mi attitude this few days.
i just cant stand it..
its making mi crazy..

i try to talked to them as thought i'm happy.
but what i got back is a scolding.
"u onli passed 2 subject & u can be so happy."
i totally got nth to say..
i try to talked to them nicely & wanting to be close to them.
but i really gave up now!!
i cant be bothered with anymore things.

i feel that i'm a useless & irritated person dat everyone hated..
i've thought thru alot.
*m i there child?
*are they doin this for my own good?
*do they understand mi?
*do they actually know what i'm thinking?
*or m i too sensitive?
i don know..

read thru alot of compo for my chinese o-level paper 1..
den i realise i don have CHILDHOOD.
my life was boring & peaceful.
i don celebrate b'day since young.
i don recieve present from my family.
my family was like sand..
all spread out.
we are not close at all..
we don go out together.
we don talked.

i don know how i'm goin to carry myself up.
i'm very tired alr.
i know dat i will failed my mid-year.
but i really did study..
but didn't put in my whole heart & mind in it..
& the papers was hard.
why cant they just put themselves in my shoe.
& think about it.
i've made a bad choice.
i shouldn't have come back to study for my Os.
i should have just go to ITE.
i don even feel like studying.
i had enough of my life.
why is it that my life is always full of ups & downs.
non-stop.
its nv ending..
i'm really very tired alr.

have being crying everyday.
wasn't myself.
don feel like talking.
i'm going crazy soon..
ARGHHHHHHHHHH...........
i cant stand it anymore.
why is it that everyyear mid-year i will always be like this?
why cant they be more encouraging than be so ......
pls stopped pouring water on mi!!
i'm not a girl who is so strong.
i'm strong on appearence cuz its just a act on my face.
i'm a soft hearted girl.
i don want my heart to be broken in pieces again.
i cant mend it back everyyear.

# my love for you*
|10:17 PM|

Thursday, May 18, 2006

shit myself.
wasn't in my clear mind that day..
went out that day..
to hougang mall..
omg..
i feel so sick & dirty rite now..
omg..
shall not talk about it..
it disgusted mi..

# my love for you*
|9:24 PM|

feeling down now!!
i'm kind of like PMSing nowadays.
don know why.
feeling bad.
don wan to do or go anywhere at all.
haiz..

17/05/06:
just drop down my tear ytr night.
cuz i too tired den i accidently thrown my sch pinafold into the washing machines when i still nid to wear the tml.
den my mummy very angry.
scolded mi.
den she helped mi to iron my pinafold again late at night.
so i cry.
so damn silly to cry over this.
but my tears just went down like this.
i cant control it.

18/05/06:
s h i t la..
my phone spoil.
stupid JOAN called mi.
den my phone vibrate until it drop on the floor from my table.
shit it la.
den i off my phone cuz i don on it at night.
den it cant be switch on in the morning.
oh damn it.
den i was asking fiona whether she got extra phone anot.
den mummy heard.
she scolded mi.
cuz this is my second phone.
my tears once again flow down.
i don know i just feel like crying out..
i'm so stressed, depressed & disappointed nowasdays.
i failed all my subjected except for chinese & e-math.
but all 50 plus wan..
haiz..
how?????????????????/
i don dare to tell my mother..
cuz that day during dinner she said alr.
don ask mi to go see your principal AGAIN!!!
CUZ DAT TIME MY RESULT IS NOT GOOD OSO.
BUT IS BETTER THAN THIS YR.
I VERY SCARE LA..
HOW????
I DON KNOW HOW TO TELL HER..
now i just feel like closing myself up.
& cry out alone.

tml is camp alr.
i haven pack my camp things yet.
i don feel like goin camp alr.
how??
feeling so sad...

# my love for you*
|6:22 PM|

Sunday, May 07, 2006

Superwoman

Early in the morning I put breakfast at your table
and I make sure that your coffee has it's suger and cream
Your eggs are over easy and you toast is lighty
All that's missing is your morning kiss that used to greet me
Now you say the juice is sour, it used to be so sweet,
And I can't help but to wonder if you're talking about me
We don't talk the way we used to talk, it's hurting so deep
I've got my pride, I will not cry But it's making me weak

I'm not your super woman
I'm not the kind of girl that you can let down and think that eveything's ok
Boy, I am only human
This girl needs more than occasional heart as a token of love from you to me

I find my way through the rush hour, try to make it home just for you
I want to make sure that your dinner will be waiting for you
But when you get there, you just tell me, you're not hungry at all
You said you'd rather read the paper and you don't want to talk
You like to think that I'm just crazy when I say that you've changed
I'm convinced I know the problem, you don't love me the same
You're just going through the motions and you're not being fair
I've got my pride, I will not cry
Still I can't help but care

I'm not your super woman Oh no, no, no
I'm not the kind of girl that you can let down and think that eveything's ok
Boy, I am only human I'm only human
This girl needs more than occasional heart as a token of love from you to me

I'm not your super woman
I'm not the kind of girl that you can let down and think that eveything's ok
Boy, I am only human
This girl needs more than occasional heart as a token of love from you to me
Ooh baby, look into the corners of your mind
I'll always be there for you, through good and bad times
But I can't be that super woman that you want me to be
I'll give my ever lasting love if you return love to me

I'm not your super woman Oh no, oh no
I'm not the kind of girl that you can let down and think that eveything's ok
Boy, I am only human I'm only human
This girl needs more than occasional heart as a token of love from you to me

If you feel it in your heart and you understand me,
stop right where you are, everybody sing along with me
I'm the kind of girl that can treat you so sweet,
but you got to realise that you got to be sweeter to me
I need love,I need love, your love

I'm not your super woman Oh no the kind of girl that you can let down

# my love for you*
|3:24 PM|

Early in the morning I put breakfast at your table
一夜都没睡
但我不曾如此清醒
我早餐准备了
你爱吃的东西
这次换我等你
被咖啡的香味叫醒
想要找回每天早晨
对我微笑着的你
还能够做些什麽
代替我的歉意
总是望着我小心翼翼
顺着我呼吸
而我竟然理所当然
让你精疲力尽

You were my superwoman
安静的在身边无条件给我
梦寐以求的温柔
But I am only human
我怎麽不懂你多寂寞
残忍的犯了错不能失去你
You fought your way through the rush hour
Try to make it home just for me
月光下静静靠着彼此
只求夜长一点
有多久没有好好看你
只是认定了我
无论在什麽时候回头都有你的笑容
是我忽略了你也会有
想要哭的感觉
没有一种付出
应该永远心甘情愿
再给被宠坏的男人
最後一次机会
换我忍耐换我等待
不要真的弃权

You were my superwoman
安静的在身边无条件给我
梦寐以求的温柔
But I am only human
我怎麽不懂你多寂寞
残忍的犯了错
不能失去你 Baby
是我把爱想得太简单
以为只要我存在就能让你取暖
心里唯一的superwoman 没有人能代替
不能想像更不能原谅
这样让爱化成灰烬
You were my superwoman
安静的在身边无条件给我
梦寐以求的温柔
But I am only human
我怎麽不懂你多寂寞
残忍的犯了错
不能失去你

You were my superwoman
安静的在身边无条件给我
梦寐以求的温柔
But I am only human
我怎麽不懂你多寂寞
残忍的犯了错
不能失去你

You were my superwoman
安静的在身边无条件给我
梦寐以求的温柔
But I am only human
我怎麽不懂你多寂寞
残忍的犯了错不能失去你

# my love for you*
|3:13 PM|

haha!!
was slacking now!!
hahaha
so sian..
nth got into my head at all..
tml having my phy & a-math..
but just cant get any thing into my head..
hehex..
so come online for awhile..
hehex..
alot of things keep appearing in my mind..
my friends??
my family???
my studies????
haiz..
alot of things happen at home..
at this time when i'm having my mid-yr..
haiz..
why must it be at this time???

wasn't feeling well today also..
don know why..
suddenly my chest very pain..
cannot breath properly..
haiz.

my mid-year it gone alr..
didn't really study for it..
hehex..
& even if got study oso cannot make it alr..
all so difficult to do..
die alr..
i don wan to c the HOD/PRINCIPAL again..
haiz..

nvm shall let it be den..
haiz..
just make sure i do well for my prelim can alr..
its so scary this yr..
everyone is mugging hard..
n chasing up..
while i'm dropping & slacking..
THIS CANT DO..
RUIXIN..
WAKE UP..
THIS YR IS O-LEVEL..
VERY IMPT. MUST WORK HARD..
MUST STUDY HARD..

okie.. shall go back to study alr..
waiting for 11 may to come..
excited.
long time nv go for a drink alr..
hehex..
actually not that long la..
chinese new yr until now..
hehex...

ya. why do gals gossip??
is this what gals are good for??
friends are alway there for you??
must a person have BEST FRIENDS OR GOOD FRIENDS??
i don think so..
a person must have alots of friends..
but whether have best friends or close friends doesn't matter to mi..
cuz they are all the same..
hehex..

i have a friend whom i know since pri3,
i'm surprise to be still so close to her.
haha..
i always tresure her very well.
not that she understand mi well.
but is becuz she's the onli one who knows all the things dat happen to mi.
cuz everytime i'm troubled, i will tell her.
whenever she's troubled, she will called mi.
but what i don understand it why does her friend always tease her about her life.
& grossip ard abt her.
& spread ard.
is that what friends are for??
don they feel bad about it??
why don they think about what if their friend also did dat to her??
what will they feel???
haiz..
hope dat she will be fine..

hehex.. gtg..
c ya..
study hard hard ppl..

# my love for you*
|2:41 PM|

Wednesday, May 03, 2006

haiz
haiz
haiz..

on 2/05/06:
having my Chenistry paper..
omg.. i cant rmb anything when i went into the hall..
all i can rmb is michelle's [1 , 2 , 3 , 4, -3 , -2 , -1 , 0 ]
haiz..
all my ans are all rubbish..
haha
den went we walking to the bus stop.
i almost kana KNOCK DOWN BY CAR!!
we were waiting for the taffic light to go green..
den i heard someone say can cross alr..
so i take 1 step out..
OMG..
give mi a fright..
LUCKY GOT SZE HWEE..
she grap mi back..
omg..
i don know wat i'm doin la..
n the can cross is the other side..
haiz..
s h i t myself man..
that's the end for mi if don have szw hwee..
haiz..
that's it for my CHEMISTRY OSO..

haiz..
on 3/05/06:
history paper..
omg.. that 1 oso GONE alr..
CUZ I CANT RMB ANYTHING AT ALL..
so is like writing rubbish oso..
haiz..
my mid-yr is gone like dat..
den stupid teachers..
keep picking on us..
sec 5 not students ah..
or we are just too stupid or wat??
why keep picking on US???"
just becuz of the small mistake we made at the 1st weeks of this yr??
if they like dat again..
n when i'm in bad mood..
they are goin to DIE!!!

gtg.. tml still got exam..
c ya..

# my love for you*
|7:30 PM|

"True friendship is like sound health; the value of it is seldom known until it be lost."
---Charles Caleb Colton

"A real friend is one who walks in when the rest of the world walks out."

"Friendship! is one mind in two bodies."
---Mencius

"Friends are God's way of taking care of us."

"If you should die before me, ask if you could bring a friend."
---Stone Temple Pilots

"I'll lean on you and you lean on me and we'll be okay."
---dave Matthew's band

"If all my friends were to jump off ! a bridge, I wouldn't jump with them, I'd be at the bottom to catch them."

"Everyone hears what you say. Friends listen to what you say. Best friends listen to what you don't say."

"We all take different paths in life, but no matter where we go, we take a little of each other everywhere."
--- Tim McGraw

"My father always used to say that when you die, if you've got five real friends, then you've had a great life." ---Lee Iacocca

"Hold a true friend with both your hands."
---Nigerian Proverb

"A friend is someone who knows the song in your heart and can sing it back to you when you have forgotten the words."
---unknown

# my love for you*
|6:50 PM|

Sunday, April 30, 2006

"Friendship is the hardest thing in the world to explain. It's not something you learn in school. But if you haven't learned the meaning of friendship, you really haven't learned anything."

this qoute is taken from qouteland..
friendship is part of our life in learning & growing up..
everyone will have to been through it..

althought i don believe in true friendship..
but i have an advise for u..
u know who u r..
let time slowly dissolve the misunderstanding..
the are after all ur friends..
maybe its just a misunderstand..
everyone will change but the friendship n feelings for u will nv change..
i think i shall not say anymore..
cuz i don know wat really happen..
but cheer up okie..
u are always the optimistic gal i that i know..

hope dat u will understand..
if u really someone to company, can always feel free to called mio..
don feel down okie..
cheer up gal..

P.S: IF GOT PPL BULLY U, WE, AH BANG, AH SENG & AH HUE, WILL ALWAYS SUPPORT & HELP U UP..
CUZ U R PART OF US!!! AH LIAN!!!
HEHEX..

# my love for you*
|2:03 PM|